Have I been here before?

"I will bring him near, that he may approach Me -- declares the Lord --
For who would otherwise dare approach Me?" Jeremiah 31.21

I wrote Rabbi a reply:

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Rabbi,

... As for the idea of Gilgul, I do not know.

The logic of today's science seems to say Time is not "linear". That is, modern physics does not seem to support the idea of The Past always pointing to the Present which always points to Future. It seems to say that at the microscopic scale, that there is only now or that the "arrow of time" sometimes even changes direction.

Most reincarnation / transmigration ideas I have read about seem to say that time is fixed in a linear direction pointed to the future just as a lot of metaphysical trancendentalists can't get beyond the idea of Newton's Clockwork Universe which leads to a lot of disappointed folks who believe that they can win the lottery by just the power of their thoughts and wonder why they haven't done so.

The universe is a much more wonderous and sometimes inexplicable place than that. The nearest thing that I can think of to the idea that you described is the idea they call "entanglement". This is when a particle develops a "relationship" with another particle. When the particles are separated, they are forever intertwined. When something effects one of the particles, the other one is instantaneously effected as well-- regardless of the distance between them much as you might have heard about twin siblings.

As the father of twins, I can tell you those stories are true. One of them once scalded herself. Her sister, who was in the next room and out of sight, screamed in pain as it happened. She knew when her sister hurt herself.

It is that kind of inexplicable thing that is a mystery to behold and not for me to try to explain. So maybe...

Yet I find myself, in a way, "uncertain"... wondering if I am not unlike many who have faltered or floundered in life and seek any comfort they can. I cannot say if I am a lost Jewish soul... that maybe I am just simply lost. Maybe the words of comfort I have read, are just that: words of comfort and solace for a weary soul.

No matter the outcome, I can only become a better person by asking the questions of myself as I try to learn to see the world differently.

I look forward to meeting with you and hearing about Jeruselem and the Heart.

regards,
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I wrote to my father and told him what I was doing. Unlike many relatives of converts [of any kind] he was overjoyed.

Odd things began to happen and hidden connections began to be revealed to me all saying: "This was meant to be."

But I'll talk about that more next time.

HaGedi